Sometimes

Sometimes I just want to be alone with my thoughts.
Sometimes I feel too sick to lay next to you, knowing who you are and what you've done.
Sometimes I feel crazy.
Sometimes I want out.
Sometimes I want to be selfish.
Sometimes I want to be angry.
Sometimes I want to be alone....for good.
Sometimes I want to open up.
Sometimes I want to shut you out.
Sometimes I want to touch your heart.
Sometimes I want to crush it in my hands.
Sometimes I want to speak my mind.
Sometimes I want to cower and am ashamed of my thoughts.
Sometimes I want to be free.
Sometimes I'd rather let you lock me away.
Sometimes I want to run.
Sometimes I want to stay in bed forever.
Sometimes I want to look in your eyes and see the truth.
Sometimes I'm too afraid of that truth.
Sometimes I want to know your thoughts.
Sometimes I'm too afraid to even ponder what they'd be.
Sometimes I want to drop it all and run away screaming.
Sometimes I want to stand by your side and fight to the death.
Sometimes I'd rather just walk away and leave you defenseless against your own demons.
Sometimes I want to break you open and learn who you really are.
Sometimes I know that I would only hate that person.
Sometimes my curiosity gets the best of me.
Sometimes I push too far and learn too much.
Sometimes I wish I didn't know at all.
Sometimes I feel that ignorance is bliss.
Sometimes I wish I never knew you at all.
Sometimes I wish I'd never laid eyes on your beautiful face.
Sometimes it kills me to think how beautiful you could be.
Sometimes it hurts even more to realize how beautiful you aren't.
Sometimes I want to let it all go and just be my own person.
Sometimes I'm too afraid to be on my own and be that person.
Sometimes I'm afraid I've made all the wrong decisions.
Sometimes I know I have.
Sometimes my decisions seem like small mistakes leading to a bigger victory.
Sometimes they feel like chains that bind me.
Sometimes I wish for serenity.
Sometimes I wish for courage.
Sometimes I wish for wisdom.
Sometimes I wish you could understand me.
Sometimes I know you never will.
Sometimes I'm glad you don't.
Sometimes my heart aches to hear yours.
Sometimes my soul cries to brush yours.
Sometimes I realize they never will.
Sometimes I feel broken beyond repair.
Sometimes I feel like I can move mountains.
Sometimes I know I could live without you.
Sometimes I know that I never will.
Sometimes it all just seems like too much.
Sometimes I just want to let go.
Sometimes I just want to default back to old habits.
Sometimes there's beauty in that madness.
Sometimes I feel it's better to be numb and scarred.
Sometimes I know I'm wrong.
Sometimes I wish you could be here all the time.
Sometimes I wish we could just be.
Sometimes my mind explodes with a thousand thoughts.
And sometimes I let them all out.