I many times thought Peace had come
When Peace was far away
When Peace was far away
As Wrecked Men -- deem they sight the Land
At Centre of the Sea
And struggle slacker -- but to prove
As hopelessly as I
How many the fictitious Shores
Before the Harbor be
~Emily Dickinson - "I many times thought peace had come"
Like Emily, many times I've thought that I've found peace and it always turned out that I had not. But now I can truly say that I have. I have found peace with myself, and most importantly with my past and my enemies. God has truly done a major work in my life in just this last week and has allowed me to make amends with not just one, but both of the people in my life who I considered to be enemies. I am so beyond grateful and thankful for this absolution, it's as if the weight of the entire universe has been lifted from my back and I can stand again and hold my head up to look to the future with a positive attitude.
It's amazing what just talking to someone and agreeing on peaceful terms can do for you. I immediately felt so much anxiety and stress lifted from my life, so much worry gone. Anger and frustration dissolved into relief and happiness, and I'd like to thank you both for that.
Cyndy, I'd like to thank you just for reaching out to me again and allowing me to befriend you and put our tumultuous past just where it belongs, behind us. I can't think of any other words besides relief and excitement. Relief that all this negativity and worry and fighting are behind us, and excitement that I now have a friend so much like me that I can talk to and freely and easily understand. I've gone from checking up on you constantly to make sure you're not talking about me, to checking constantly to see what new and exciting things you have created and what interesting and intriguing things you have to say. I look to you as a friend now, and a good friend who can understand me on a level that most can never fathom. I hope that doesn't freak you out at all or make you feel awkward! Thanks again for letting God work through you and making it possible for us to not only make amends, but start a new and blossoming friendship. =]
Jessica, thank you for allowing me to speak to you, for actually giving me the time of day and not ignoring me. I was honestly terrified to talk to you, so scared that it would only blow up in my face but I am comforted immensely in knowing that we can put this all aside, forgive one another and move on with our lives. Even if you may not realize it, you have helped me in such a tremendous way to lay hurt and anger to rest and replace them with forgiveness and peace. All the hatred and resentment that had built up within me in these past months has virtually just melted away and given way to solace and rest that I've been very much in need of. Thank you.
I am so glad to know that this can all be put behind us and that from all this I've even gained a friend and ally. I have been blessed in so many ways and I think the both of you have too. I'm glad that I can let go of whatever enmity was left between us and just love you as God meant for me to. I hope that God continues to bless you both in every way possible.
<3
At Centre of the Sea
And struggle slacker -- but to prove
As hopelessly as I
How many the fictitious Shores
Before the Harbor be
~Emily Dickinson - "I many times thought peace had come"
Like Emily, many times I've thought that I've found peace and it always turned out that I had not. But now I can truly say that I have. I have found peace with myself, and most importantly with my past and my enemies. God has truly done a major work in my life in just this last week and has allowed me to make amends with not just one, but both of the people in my life who I considered to be enemies. I am so beyond grateful and thankful for this absolution, it's as if the weight of the entire universe has been lifted from my back and I can stand again and hold my head up to look to the future with a positive attitude.
It's amazing what just talking to someone and agreeing on peaceful terms can do for you. I immediately felt so much anxiety and stress lifted from my life, so much worry gone. Anger and frustration dissolved into relief and happiness, and I'd like to thank you both for that.
Cyndy, I'd like to thank you just for reaching out to me again and allowing me to befriend you and put our tumultuous past just where it belongs, behind us. I can't think of any other words besides relief and excitement. Relief that all this negativity and worry and fighting are behind us, and excitement that I now have a friend so much like me that I can talk to and freely and easily understand. I've gone from checking up on you constantly to make sure you're not talking about me, to checking constantly to see what new and exciting things you have created and what interesting and intriguing things you have to say. I look to you as a friend now, and a good friend who can understand me on a level that most can never fathom. I hope that doesn't freak you out at all or make you feel awkward! Thanks again for letting God work through you and making it possible for us to not only make amends, but start a new and blossoming friendship. =]
Jessica, thank you for allowing me to speak to you, for actually giving me the time of day and not ignoring me. I was honestly terrified to talk to you, so scared that it would only blow up in my face but I am comforted immensely in knowing that we can put this all aside, forgive one another and move on with our lives. Even if you may not realize it, you have helped me in such a tremendous way to lay hurt and anger to rest and replace them with forgiveness and peace. All the hatred and resentment that had built up within me in these past months has virtually just melted away and given way to solace and rest that I've been very much in need of. Thank you.
I am so glad to know that this can all be put behind us and that from all this I've even gained a friend and ally. I have been blessed in so many ways and I think the both of you have too. I'm glad that I can let go of whatever enmity was left between us and just love you as God meant for me to. I hope that God continues to bless you both in every way possible.
<3
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